Almost a year

About 2 weeks to go and I can celebrate my 1 year survival.

I've changed.

But the days have still not enough hours to do everything I want to do.

Today a great inspiration in my life has died. He had cancer. Conquered it and then found out it had returned even worse. He didn't manage the year his doctors wanted to give him, even though he tried all he could to believe in healing.

All I do is try to rely on my inner peace. Take each day at a time.
I try to see the world in a positive way (even though that's very difficult. When I see what people do to each other it makes me sick. For instance: the situation in Tibet.)
I try not to judge people, not to manipulate and make my choices as plain as possible.

Last weekend I was at the special day organised around the visit of the Dalai Lama. I was both at the lecture and the public meeting. Next to me sat a wonderful woman who radiated kindness. Her being was so nurturing, that I realised even more what I want, how I want to be.
Strangely enough it makes me feel closer to people and yet understand even more of their behaviour.
Well, maybe that's what compassion does.

What do you think?

Yes, I'm going!

It took a few days to get through online, but I finally managed to get a seat at both the lesson and public reading of the Dalai Lama.
As far as I can see it's almost at the back, so I hope there are large screens so I can see enough anyway.

It's a pity it's all a money thing.
But long long ago I was promissed that I would be able to go when he would be in my country. I never thought the promiss would be kept, but without any real discussion a seat was booked.

I feel very lucky.

There are many reasons for me to be present at the event.
I feel buddhist and I want to hear the lectures from as close to the source as possible.
Many people have told me the Dalai Lama in person is a big inspiration. I wonder if I can sense that too.
Maybe I will be too far aaway, maybe not. We'll see.

I wish I could have a good talk with him. I heard him say, a while ago, that he's afraid to die.
I don't experience fear of death. In fact I don't mind if I die, because maybe the next life will be better.
I feel sorry for those that will be left behind and who will miss me. But to deal with mourning is part of life's tasks. I can prepare them for that as well as possible.

Well, it will be nice to have a day all for myself.
One of my sons will drive me there, so I'll be in time.

What can I have more?

Dalai Lama to The Netherlands

I was elated to hear that the Dalai Lama will visit The Netherlands May 10-12 2014.
He will give a public lesson and reading at may 11 in Rotterdam.

Tickets are available but be aware that it's best to use the advice given on the main site of the visit, as there are commercial ticketsellers who provide a kind of second hand tickets for more money.

You can get more information at this site.